Victoria's Poems

Kupandangi cakrawala barat Sapuan aneka warna bersemburat Langit tak berawan petang Saat Sang Surya tlah menghilang Menyisakan lembayung di ujung biru Sesaat itu ada kurasakan haru Sekilas kulihat bayangmu melintas Menari di luasnya langit tak terbatas Dan kutersadar betapa jauh ku t'lah melangkah Tak nampak sudah persimpangan kita berpisah Kau tak tampak nyata dalam benak Tak lagi kurasakan getar dalam gerak Terpikir kadang tuturmu dulu Yang membuatku selalu meragu Dan kini kupaham mengapa kau begitu Betapa indah saat-saat itu Saat kau satu dalam kalbu Dan kini ku t'lah melangkah jauh Tak lagi kau hadir dalam mimpi Tanpamu tak lagi kurasakan sepi Betapa jauh kau t'lah melangkah Dan lajunya tak bisa kucegah Tapi tentangmu kusimpan rapat Dan hatimu tetap terasa dekat

I am sorry for this baby Otherwise we're gonna hurt each other more You bring out the best of me but also the worst You're making me feel alive while killing me Sorry I can't keep up with you Your life is already a picture perfect and I'm gonna ruin it if ever I enter the frame I don't belong there, I must go You are so perfect to me as I to you But you cannot choose to be with me You belong to the kingdom you've built and I'm the uninvited stranger We used to talk every day every night Now I barely know what's going on And it's killing me to live this part alone I must go or we'll both drown deeper Your life is already a picture perfect Who am I to ruin it, I must go

Hey baby love, How are you doing today? I've been missing you Tho it's just been a day away Hey baby love, Are you missing me too? I feel lost here already I feel incomplete without you We both know it's not working I can never have enough of you You can never give more to me We know what we're doing This will be the best for you As it will be the best for me Hey baby love, Please don't feel sad now As you said this kind of love is the one that makes us grow We've both had leapt so far Grew much since we started Now we have to be parted We've both became wiser There ain't no regret There's so much that we get Hey baby love, Can you give a smile for me? Be happy in your blessed life I'm sorry I can't be with thee

Teach me how to live without seeing your beautiful eyes in everything that I see Teach me how to breathe without smelling you in the air the scent that brings me memories Teach me how to move on without staring at the trails that you left on the road Teach me how to accept without looking at the faults but focus on the good instead Teach me how to love without comparing or accusing just to love with all my heart

Bila harus kumelepasmu Bukan hati tak merasa Namun asa yang berkata Bila harus kau nanti pergi Ku takkan sesali Tak perlu kutangisi Saatnya kan berlalu Peranmu untukku Menuntun arahku Bila kelak tlah usai waktu Kan kubingkai indah cerita Pernah ada tentang kita

Don't cry baby I don't deserve your tears Even if I have to go now My heart stays And I promise I will always love you

Tell me I'm wrong If I let go like this Who am I to keep you I don't deserve this But I don't see how else Should I behave Doesn't mean I don't love you Instead I do, so much I just can't be selfish I shouldn't keep you for me While you belong somewhere else I need to let you go Because I cannot stay either I would end up wanting you more And it's gonna be bad Now I do what I know is best Let you be where you belong And everything would be good

They say we met too late I'd say it's a little early There's something special here You feel it deep, I feel it, too This ain't no ordinary love The binding is too strong No one would understand But we know this would last The time ain't yours, it ain't mine Till then I'd wait here in patient

This stage was never mine But I played my part on it Get in too deep with my role I should get off This love shouldn't be mine But I borrowed and enjoyed it Wanting to possess it alone I should give it back This home couldn't be mine But I came on in anyway Though never got invited I should leave soon

Nalar ini tak seharusnya memikirkanmu Tapi wajahmu selalu ada di benakku Kaki ini tak seharusnya menghampirimu Tapi kau serasa magnet yang selalu menarikku Tangan ini tak seharusnya menyentuhmu Tapi getaran aneh ini selalu memaksaku Bibir ini tak seharusnya memanggil namamu Tapi doa selalu terucap untuk bahagiamu Hati ini tak seharusnya mencinta dirimu Tapi selalu ada rasa tersimpan bagimu

Once upon a time  Faith had made them met Love struck between two hearts Blooming rapidly and uncontrollably God has His own way To show His love and power Why is it now and why is it you We'll never know , it's His mystery Had it been earlier Things wouldn't be this complicated You asked, "where had you been all my life?" I said, "maybe I was busy growing up" Then you smiled and kissed my eyes "which made me love you so much now" Once upon a time God was acting as a cupid Perhaps He gave out the wrong arrows But then again maybe He was right after all

Nothing is fair in love and war Now I find how true the words are Tho us could be a perfect match Some things are already attached This can only go wrong It's not simply about the song Something more already bloomed But we don't wanna be doomed You sure must go on your way Don't let me be your dismay As the path you have already chosen A pact you made is not to be broken Apparently you are not going Whatever it is that you are holding Now I must take the first step To be free from your trapping web We are not going anywhere That, we are already aware Let's just keep this sweet memory As something complimentary

Sometimes a simple ride on the bike Can bring us something we might like The deep words we exchange Opens gate of a new chance To me you were a stranger But in just hours we get closer I once said no to love before Now take back what I vowed for Said sweet words to my ears In silence I wish you'd never leave Never thought I'd ever met you Now I find it's hard to forget you Be with you, it feels so fine But I know that you are not mine Soon you will have to go Leaving my heart hurting so Us won't be a trouble, you promised  But I can't be that selfish It's much better to forget me I will be okay without thee

Hello, Love. How are you doing? It's been a while, you know. I'm kinda surprised. Hey, Sugar. Your voice is still the same. Sounds kinda distant, tho. You sounds hurt. You know what, Hon? I'm glad that you call. You still remember my day. Am I still that special, too, you mean? Yes, Sweetheart. I understand my place now. I'm not supposed to have hopes. Love is no longer ours. But you should know, Dear. My heart still feels the same. I still love you even after it all. And will always do no matter what. I don't mean to burden you, Babe. We really should go our own ways now. And it's far too late to go back. Nothing left in that place we had ruined once. Okay now, Darling. You gotta hang up, I can hear it. Too much pain and memories you just opened. But too quick we should end it now here. Bye-bye, Love. It's just so nice to hear your voice again. Tho it's just for a glimpse and a brief. Still, it's enough for my l...

I wish you are happy with her...

28.06.10 Habis. Terkuras sudah semua dayaku. Untuk mencintaimu, membuatmu bahagia. Tak sanggup lagi. Tak ada lagi yang tersisa dariku. Semua t’lah kuberikan padamu, segalanya. Apa yang kulakukan aku tak tahu. Tiba-tiba kauputuskan tali cinta ini. Mengemispun aku tak mampu. Semua cinta t’lah kuserahkan untukmu. Lantas harus apakahku sekarang? Tak ada lagi tujuan, hidupku terasa kosong. Tak mungkin kuakhiri sekarang, belum tuntas semua. Namun tanpa hadirmu di hariku, kan kujalani tanpa asa. Suatu saat kau ‘kan melihatku. Budak uang yang berjuang menyusuri hidup Dalam kekelaman batin yang tak pernah terbayangkan Di situlah ku ‘kan berada. Merelakanmu. Dengan mengorbankan cintaku.

20.04.09 I know you're hurting I can still feel it Tho we're now apart I can't help it Everything 'bout you made me sad Or mad, I don't know why I know you still love me In some ways you know that I still love you too But never in the way you want me to And we can never be one I'm sorry if that's the way it is Too complicated and too painful Somehow we'll end up hurting each other And that's the least I want for us So I took the first step out That seemed so cruel to you I know, I am hurting too But look at the larger picture God is preparing something beautiful for you too You just have to be patient and understand Things I've tried to explain but failed Maybe someone else can do it Someone that's not me.. *) Désolée {read: dézolé} is French for "I'm Sorry"

Uh-oh, what is this? A glimpse of a bliss Like thunder in July it came all over Images of an adventure in one hot summer It was just like yesterday When I first knew you in such way With all those rush things we did together But we weren't meant for each other Then you were gone, you left me alone Like they never meant anything I was abandoned And days went by as the years followed To where we stand now we were delivered Suddenly today, you just popped back in Asking me delightly a chance for a meeting Whether this is a good thing, I don't have a clue You ruined my whole system from out of the blue But I'm glad that you're doing fine Just to know that you still remember by saying hi When all I wanted to say is 'I miss you' this whole time.. But this is just enough for now I have my own guy

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10.06.03 Kehilanganmu buatku menangis Hilang segala kenangan kita Kehilanganmu melegakan juga Tiada lagi penantian tak pasti Kehilanganmu menyadarkanku Tiada yang abadi di dunia ini Kehilanganmu membuka mataku Untuk cinta lain dalam hidupku Kehilanganmu menyadarkanku Arti penting dalam kehidupan Kehilanganmu buatku Tersenyum pada dunia