Victoria's Poems

I wish you are happy with her...

27.05.07 Cinta… Kenapa satu kata itu bisa bikin kita jungkir balik merasakan badai perasaan yang campur aduk? Kenapa satu kata itu bisa bikin kita superseneng dan sangatsedih, seperti dua mata koin yang merupakan satu kesatuan—hanya punya dua wajah yg berbeda? Kenapa satu kata itu bisa bikin kita ninggalin semua logika, prinsip, dan keyakinan kita hanya demi satu orang yang membawa kata ‘cinta’ ini ke dalam kehidupan kita? Kenapa satu kata itu mampu membuat keangkuhan terpaksa dirobohkan dan keegoisan dilebur? Kenapa satu kata itu merupakan satu kata yang patut dibenci namun kita memilih untuk mencinta? Kenapa satu kata itu bisa mengubah seseorang—bahkan sifat yang setegar batu sekalipun? Kenapa satu kata itu membuatku sesak napas sekarang? Aku butuh dia. Butuh dia untuk tetap bertahan. Cinta… Kenapa hanya itu yang kubutuhkan? Namun logika menghalangi… Cinta… Dapatkah cinta mengalahkan benteng prinsip dan logika—selamanya? Aku ingin hidup bahagia. Aku ingin hidup dengan cinta. Dapatkah...

.. there was a guy who fell in love with a girl. And to meet his hope she loved him back. Yet have the fate not side with their love, together they were never been. She lived her life in a town three hours away from him, made them meet more occasionally than often, and whenever they met their hearts bloomed. Had the years passed now she moved to his city. To be with him she cut out other relationship she had and gave him the trilionth chance to get her back. It was already the seventh years she was in love with him and so was he. But never, on those moments they had acted as lovers because the matter of place and time. Yet in those years had they met and built a bond only they could see. The bond of love they secretly made between their hearts, not for anybody else to see, even from each other. On one of Decembers of their years of knowing they got closer than ever. She was ready to give him everything. He was making journey to her town more than often. But without any warning he walke...

Apa sih maumu? Selalu muncul di saat kutak inginkan Selalu hilang di saat kurindukan Apa yang kaupikirkan? Bahwa ku kan slalu menantimu? Bahwa akulah labuhan terakhirmu? Tidakkah kau sadar Aku juga manusia Ku perlu tuk mencinta Aku bukan pion caturmu Yang kau mainkan saat kauingin Dan kau tinggalkan saat kaubosan Aku tak ingin seperti ini Kupunya hidupku sendiri Kuingin putuskan di sini Bila nanti kau kembali Jangan pernah kausesali Bukan salahku tuk kini pergi

11.08.04 Malam ini kita bertemu lagi Seperti yang selalu terjadi sejak dulu Tapi ada yang berbeda malam ini Kita menghabiskan lebih banyak waktu Dan ketika kau tersenyum aku bergetar Tak dapat kutahan perasaan ini Kekaguman dan kecintaanku padamu Tapi kau tak pernah tau Tak dapat kupalingkan tatapanku Dari wajah tampanmu itu Dan sekuat tenaga aku berusaha Menutupi rasa yang bergolak di dada Kau antarkanku pulang Dan tersenyum kala kau berbalik Menginggalkanku dalam senyum simpul Yang takkan hilang hingga tidurku Adakah kaurasakan yang sama? Menahan perasaan yang menahun Sekian lama tiada bertukar kata Apa gerangan maksud di balik itu?

11.05.04 It came over me again A feeling full of love and excitement To a special guy outside there Thought he was waiting for me As I was waiting for him for so long Thought my heart would be filled by love But I was wrong, maybe not now Though he filled my heart with joy and hopes And matches the missing pieces of my puzzle He's just not for me, not at this time And as he walked and passed by I'll say a prayer for you and I For if we're meant for each other Wish we'll find our way right away And if you don't belong to be by my side We'll take our own ways but never a goodbye And in my prayer I'll still say your name And thank God for what we've had Though it was just a little crossed way But you gave me a map to see my own city And found what I've been looking for And for that I thank you