Victoria's Poems

Aku berjalan pulang dengan hati riang Seulas senyum menghias wajah yang girang Ribuan kali telah kutonton sirkus itu Ribuan kali pula ia dapat memukauku Empat tahun aku menyimak dengan setia Mengenal betul setiap pelosok dan sudutnya Walau hanya sekian hari dan tak menetap Kunanti saat ia kembali untuk kutatap Atraksinya merangsang imaji dan hatiku tertambat Wahananya mengguncang tubuhku dengan nikmat Itulah sirkus yang membuatku mengharap Dalam setiap kunjungnya yang hanya sekejap Hingga saat ia berkemas untuk pergi Terkadang berbulan tanpa kabar dan berita Tak tahu kapan ia akan kembali lagi Menyapaku dengan hiburan gambar dan cerita Ingin rasanya kumiliki sirkus itu Yang memberi tujuan dalam hidupku Karena hampa kurasa tanpa hadirnya Meski sesaat kumerasa memilikinya

Dapatkah kau rasa ini, Sayang? Damai yang menyelimuti kalbu Bahagia memenuhi relung hati Bersamamu menunggu waktu Kala detik bergulir hendak berganti hari Menyambut hari lahir yang terulang Memiliki hatimu yang putih Penuh syukur kupanjatkan doa Untukmu; Untuk kita Dan kau genggam tanganku lembut Kurasakan aliran hangat merayapi Getar cintamu melaju dalam darahku Membangkitkan rasa terdalam Tangis ini bukanlah luka atau pedih Untuk cinta terindah yang kurasa, untukmu Untuk momen sesaat nan indah, 17 Maret 2013 . Terima kasihku bagimu, Cinta.

Sekejap kuterbuai Menikmati kasihmu Menyentuh kalbuku Sesaat kuterlena Merasakan sentuhanmu Mencicipi surgamu Sedetik ini saja Sebelum selesai waktu Selagi kau masih milikku Sekilas kukecapi Manis rasa yang kauberi Tersimpan rapi dalam hati

Mendekat padaku Kan kuhapus pedihmu Luka yang tlah berlalu Kuganti bahagia untukmu Takkan ada lagi lara Untukmu ku kan slalu ada Jangan pernah kau meragu Kasihku padamu utuh selalu

We should be wiser, said you We would step higher, promised you Nothing that I should worry about Because you are here, no doubt Love ain't no easy thing to keep But ours is just way too deep  Against the world, you and me But this love sets us free We would get thru the obstacles We should see from this spectacles That nothing could ever put us down When it's all over we will wear the crown

To have you is nothing I had ever thought I could To be loved by you is something I never thought I would But you showed me it's the other way around You showed how love can be so pure to my astound How can I not loving you? Everything about you feels so true How can I not wanting you? Looking at you is always my best view Your every touch is my salvation Your every kiss sends me sensation In every love that we make I won't pretend I wish for the moment to never end To know you're gonna be around makes me calm To be in your arms gets my body warm Now I know how it is to be loved so beautifully I thank God for ever sending you, my lovely

Your fingers were entwined with mine Your lips were locked between mine For that short hours you were mine And my heart and soul are all thine

Once upon a time  Faith had made them met Love struck between two hearts Blooming rapidly and uncontrollably God has His own way To show His love and power Why is it now and why is it you We'll never know , it's His mystery Had it been earlier Things wouldn't be this complicated You asked, "where had you been all my life?" I said, "maybe I was busy growing up" Then you smiled and kissed my eyes "which made me love you so much now" Once upon a time God was acting as a cupid Perhaps He gave out the wrong arrows But then again maybe He was right after all

Your love makes me happy It lightens up even the bluest of my day Your love makes me believe I'm worth a lot more than I thought I was Your love gives me laughter Of stories you share with me about the past Your love makes me cry On how you treat me like no other man did before Your love makes me feel warm You comfort me between my worries and weary heart Your love makes me feel blessed Because I know God take care of me by sending you Your love makes me act like a child Who seeks attention and affection from her parents Your love makes me feel like a woman Who flies to the sky while stands on earth at the same time Your love makes me powerful I could bear anything the world is challenging me Your love makes me so grateful Because not everyone is experiencing such great love Thank you for your love I am loved and it is precious I don't want anything else in life Because your love is everything I need

Sometimes a simple ride on the bike Can bring us something we might like The deep words we exchange Opens gate of a new chance To me you were a stranger But in just hours we get closer I once said no to love before Now take back what I vowed for Said sweet words to my ears In silence I wish you'd never leave Never thought I'd ever met you Now I find it's hard to forget you Be with you, it feels so fine But I know that you are not mine Soon you will have to go Leaving my heart hurting so Us won't be a trouble, you promised  But I can't be that selfish It's much better to forget me I will be okay without thee

Suddenly, I'm falling in love again... ... and it tastes so sweet it feels so beautiful it makes me go wondering and smiling and daydreaming... ... it drives me crazy but crazy in love is way better and I'm so much better now, thanks to you!

You were there by the pool, sitting When I accidentally past over you Normally it won't mean anything But you know, a dream just came true Funny how you appeared just like that When we chat, I felt like I've known you I just remembered, we've already met In my dream last night, I'm pretty sure it was you I don't really believe in coincidence But what just happened I can not explain Do we need any more evidence? Maybe we're soulmate, but maybe just a friend

19.03.09 When you first said hi after those missing years I thought, how could this be--it can not be! Tried to tell myself it must not for real Though I secretly wanted it to be When you say how much you missed me I wished you'd never say them Cuz they made me put hopes on you And would break my heart if it's not true When you say you love me true I could only smile, looking back at you You won't know how hard my inside screamed Wanting it so bad to become true So when you really did show me How much you really care about I could only say my grace and thanks and for that, babe, how can I not love you?

04.04.09 In a world maybe only hers to know, she was desperate For nobody's knowledge she had suffered and tortured Life had taught her miseries--she had to find joy among the sorrow Unfairness happens--but justice would find its own way somehow By the time he found her she was wounded and exhausted She was torn and broken and she needed some hope How had she forgotten how to again have the laughter A glimpse of happiness--that was all she ever wanted In him she has found an understanding like never before With him she grows and expands more than she'd ever know By him she is loved and taken care, cherished and embraced Beside him she knows she will--a little more than may--be just fine Thank you.

29.04.09 I searched on my past, scared to replay mistakes Trauma to certain conditions, afraid to get hurt I knew life's hard and it sucks sometimes and it's normal I have my dreams and keep it inside but I knew it wouldn't come But you came my way again and all my dreams came true You changed my world and fulfills my heart with your love I see your eyes and found a pure soul being so true to me I hear your voice and I know, somehow, that I'll be fine with you

06.09.09 Like a vampire he came to my life, in a sudden I was slave of his love. Cool and mysterious, with a bit hypnotize If it's a dream I wouldn't want to rise. To his scent my nose was searching, And his presence meant for my being. Too bad I don't own cross or silver, But if I do, could it make him go over? Now that he's sucking out my blood, To him only shall I give my one love. Oh I hope he won't try to drain me, Or my life would feel just so empty.

30.08.09 Into those pair of beautiful hazelnut-brown eyes I was looking, tried to convince myself it was not a dream I was in... No, it was not--tho all of the things that happened for the last six months did seemed like one. Into those hypnotic hazel eyes my mind was dragged, bringing my mind back into four years earlier, when that luscious full lips told me how comfortable the owner was to be with me but somehow had promised someone to stay away... Or to what happened just a month before, when he lightly suggested for us to be together and how excited I was when I responded to the invitation a 'yes', making him ended up kissing me softly with his delicious juicy lips... Or to what happened six months before, when I saw him being with another girl and how it broke my heart in silence--that I tried to convince myself he was not for me, how wonderful things like him doesn't belong in my life... Or to what happened three months before, when I first saw him on the par...

18.04.09 This isn't a dream. You made me sure about it last night, before I fell asleep, by the phone. Though it really feels like one. The one I've been dreaming about for years, after all, that comes true today. In my dreams were images of a man who'd love me so true, but along with the love, frees my soul. In it I dreamt about hands of the man who'd hold mine thru life and carry me up when I grow tired. In it I figured the feet that would walk and run with me, with the same pace, until the end of the road. In it I imagined a pair of eyes that would look through mine and find my soul in it, nakedly, and those eyes would love what they'd looking at, regardless how broken, flawed, and contented it is, but still love it no matter what. Those eyes match yours. You, of all the boys I've loved, lost and broken for. You, of all the men I've ever wanted; my deepest wish I dared not to dream of. The combination of it scares me yet it relaxes me at the...